The Spaghetti Squash StoryPosted: January 6, 2012
So here’s what happened.
Last night my mom made a delicious family dinner that included her homemade spaghetti sauce, grilled garlic bread, and salad.
We had leftover spaghetti squash in the fridge, so instead of having regular spaghetti I was going to have the spaghetti squash instead so I put the container out by the sink
When I went over to get my plate, I noticed the container was empty. My mom innocently thought I didn’t want it anymore and tossed it down the drain
In my mind I started to freak out “Now I don’t want to eat the pasta because there are too many calories in pasta and less in spaghetti squash”
Let’s backtrack a little bit..
I haven’t alluded to any bad past eating habits on the blog because I don’t normally post anything serious/negative honestly because I don’t really have a guts to be as open as other bloggers..but here we go..
Basically summing it up, when I set out to loose weight the summer going into my senior year of high school it was the only thing I was focused on..well that and raising my precious lucy:)
she was sooo wittttleee
I went to the gym every.single.day and told myself I was going to start counting calories using livestrong.com and limit my calorie intake to 1200 a day
I know there is a ton of criticism and different opinions on how many calories you need every day to loose weight in a healthy way, but this number for some reason was ingrained in my brain and I stuck to it
After the whole summer I lost about 12 pounds. People were telling me how “skinny” I looked and it made me just want to keep going
I went out and bought a scale at the beginning of that summer, and pretty much weighed myself every day well into my senior year of high school
After those 12 pounds I pretty much reached a plateau but continued to count calories and 1200 was ALWAYS the limit..no exceptions.
This was pretty much just a habit all throughout my senior year of high school, and for senior year prom I did a special “cleanse” 4 days before the 2 proms I went to to make sure I would look extra skinny in my prom dresses…dumb I know
This was me in at one of my proms. The thing was I never got to a point where I was an unhealthy weight for the height I am at all..it was just the actions I was taking were unhealthy for me
Fast forward to college..I tried to maintain the 1200 calories a day..but I was SO much more active and just couldn’t do it. I walked more then I ever have in my life, and went to the gym. I’m pretty sure first semester in college I lost a few pounds rather than gaining the “freshman 15”
Then I went to Spain and for the first time I didn’t have control over what I ate. I basically took a month off of exercising (unless you count dancing in the clubs:)..and while I was 100% secure with everything, I was finally able to step back and realize there is more to life than healthy eating and exercise
Discovering healthy living blogs also made a HUGE impact. I use to eat a lot more processed so-called “diet” food and now my view on the food I eat is WAY different. I would have never let myself eat 300-400 calorie bowls of oatmeal in the morning before because I would be SO worried that it wouldn’t allow me enough calories for the rest of the day
Basically, I’m not going to lie and say that A. I never count calories anymore and B. I’m 100% happy with the way I look. Due to last nights incident, that clearly is not the case. But its something I’m continuing to work on..focusing on living a healthy lifestyle rather than a restricted one
The end for now.